Foul & ugly – that’s me

Past month or so has been rough.

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Bare Servant

As usual, I have no idea where to start or how to put my thoughts into coherent words. This is yet another one of those instances where I originally intended to write this a while ago, didn’t, thought about more things, and am now unsure how to bring it all together.

And, as usual, this is probably going to be a super duper long jumble of thoughts.


My junior year…? …senior year…? (Oh my gosh… my memory is terrible, I can’t deal), some sisters and I had a meeting with two older women from our church. The whole meeting was centered around helping us figure out (one of) our gifts. After a very long and painful push-and-pull, we finally got to mine. And, by get to mine, I mean that they eventually had to just tell me because I was clearly not getting there.

Given what it was, it’s no wonder I couldn’t figure it out. In no life or universe would I have ever dared to think of that for myself.

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Beauty and the Beast

But here the correlation with Beauty and the Beast ends. In the fable, the beauty kisses the beast. In the Bible, the beauty does much more. He becomes the beast so the beast can become the beauty. Jesus changes places with us. We, like Adam, were under a curse, but Jesus “changed places with us and put himself under that curse” (Gal. 3:13).
Max Lucado, He Chose the Nails

I remember reading this somewhere (probably tumblr), like two years ago. I haven’t been able to forget it ever since.

All of us also lived among them at one time, gratifying the cravings of our flesh and following its desires and thoughts. Like the rest, we were by nature deserving of wrath. 4 But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, 5 made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions—it is by grace you have been saved. 6 And God raised us up with Christ and seated us with him in the heavenly realms in Christ Jesus, 7 in order that in the coming ages he might show the incomparable riches of his grace, expressed in his kindness to us in Christ Jesus. 8 For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— 9 not by works, so that no one can boast. 10 For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.
(Ephesians 2: 3-10)

The verse reminded me of a Sunday sermon from a few months ago on this chapter. I actually wrote a reflection on it, but at the time, I was focused on indifference towards God.

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